An Angel named Cheyenne

 

 

 

An Angel named Cheyenne

"Watch out! You nearly broad sided that car!" My father yelled at me.
"Can't you do anything right?"

Those words hurt worse than blows. I turned my head toward the elderly
man in the seat beside me, daring me to challenge him.

A lump rose in my throat as I averted my eyes. I wasn't prepared for
another battle.

"I saw the car, Dad.....Please don't yell at me when I'm driving." My
voice was measured and steady, sounding far calmer than I really felt.

Dad glared at me, then turned away and settled back. At home I left Dad
in front of the television and went outside to collect my thoughts.

Dark, heavy clouds hung in the air with a promise of rain.

The rumble of distant thunder seemed to echo my inner turmoil.

What could I do about him?

Dad had been a lumberjack in Washington and Oregon. He had enjoyed being outdoors and had reveled in pitting his strength against the forces of
nature. He had entered grueling lumberjack competitions and had placed often.

The shelves in his house were filled with trophies that attested to his prowess.

The years marched on relentlessly.

The first time he couldn't lift a heavy log, he joked about it; but
later that same day I saw him outside alone, straining to lift it.

He became irritable whenever anyone teased him about his advancing
age, or when he couldn't do something he had done as a younger man.

Four days after his sixty-seventh birthday, he had a heart attack.

An ambulance sped him to the hospital while a paramedic administered CPR to keep blood and oxygen flowing.

At the hospital, Dad was rushed into an operating room. He was lucky, he
survived.

But something inside Dad died. His zest for life was gone. He
obstinately refused to follow doctor's orders. Suggestions and offers of
help were turned aside with sarcasm and insults.

The number of visitors thinned, then finally stopped altogether. Dad was
left alone.

My husband, Dick, and I asked Dad to come live with us on our small
farm. We hoped the fresh air and rustic atmosphere would help him
adjust.

Within a week after he moved in, I regretted the invitation.

It seemed nothing was satisfactory. He criticized everything I did. I
became frustrated and moody.

Soon I was taking my pent-up anger out on Dick......We began to bicker
and argue. Alarmed, Dick sought out our pastor and explained the situation. The clergyman set up weekly counseling appointments for us. At the close of each session he prayed, asking God to soothe Dad's troubled mind. But the months wore on and God was silent.

Something had to be done and it was up to me to do it.

The next day I sat down with the phone book and methodically called each
of the mental health clinics listed in the Yellow Pages. I explained my
problem to each of the sympathetic voices that answered. In vain.

Just when I was giving up hope, one of the voices suddenly exclaimed, "I
just read something that might help you! Let me go get the article." I
listened as she read. The article described a remarkable study done at a
nursing home.

All of the patients were under treatment for chronic depression. Yet
their attitudes had improved dramatically when they were given
responsibility for a dog.

I drove to the animal shelter that afternoon. After I filled out a
questionnaire a uniformed officer led me to the kennels.

The odor of disinfectant stung my nostrils as I moved down the row of
pens. Each contained five to seven dogs.

Long-haired dogs, curly-haired dogs, black dogs, spotted dogs-all jumped
up, trying to reach me.

I studied each one but rejected one after the other for various
reasons-too big, too small, too much hair. As I neared the last pen a
dog in the shadows of the far corner struggled to his feet, walked to
the front of the run and sat down.

It was a pointer, one of the dog world's aristocrats. But this was a
caricature of the breed.

Years had etched his face and muzzle with shades of gray. His hipbones
jutted out in lopsided triangles.

But it was his eyes that caught and held my attention.....Calm and
clear, they beheld me unwaveringly. I pointed to the  dog.    

"Can you tell me about him?"

The officer looked, then shook his head in puzzlement.

"He's a funny one. Appeared out of nowhere and sat in front of the gate.
We brought him in, figuring someone would be right down to claim him.
That was two weeks ago and we've heard nothing. His time is up
tomorrow." He gestured helplessly.

As the words sank in I turned to the man in horror. "You mean you're
going to kill him?"

"Ma'am," he said gently, "that's our policy. We don't have room for
every unclaimed dog." I looked at the pointer again.

The calm brown eyes awaited my decision
"I'll take him," I said.

I drove home with the dog on the front seat beside me.

When I reached the house I honked the horn twice. I was helping my prize
out of the car when Dad shuffled onto the front porch.

"Ta-da! Look what I got for you, Dad!" I said excitedly. Dad looked,
then wrinkled his face in disgust. "If I had wanted a dog I would have
gotten one. And I would have picked out a better specimen than that bag
of bones. Keep it !   I don't want it."

Dad waved his arm scornfully and turned back toward the house.

Anger rose inside me. It squeezed together my throat muscles and pounded into my temples. "You'd better get used to him, Dad.....he's staying!" Dad ignored me.

"Did you hear me, Dad?" I screamed.  At those words Dad whirled angrily, his hands clenched at his sides, his eyes narrowed and blazing with hate.

We stood glaring at each other like duelists, when suddenly the pointer
pulled free from my grasp.

He wobbled toward my dad and sat down in front of him. Then slowly,
carefully, he raised his paw.

Dad's lower jaw trembled as he stared at the uplifted paw. Confusion
replaced the anger in his eyes. The pointer waited patiently.

Then Dad was on his knees hugging the animal......It was the beginning
of a warm and intimate friendship. Dad named the pointer Cheyenne.

Together he and Cheyenne explored the
community. They spent long hours walking down dusty lanes. They spent
reflective moments on the banks of streams, angling for tasty trout.

They even started to attend Sunday services together, Dad sitting in a
pew and Cheyenne lying quietly at his feet. Dad and Cheyenne were
inseparable throughout the next three years. Dad's bitterness faded, and
he and Cheyenne made many friends.

Then late one night I was startled to feel Cheyenne's cold nose
burrowing through our bed covers. He had never before come into our
bedroom at night.

I woke Dick, put on my robe and ran into my father's room. Dad lay in
his bed, his face serene.....But his spirit had left quietly sometime
during the night.

Two days later my shock and grief deepened when I discovered Cheyenne
lying dead beside Dad's bed. I wrapped his still form in the rag rug he
had slept on.

As Dick and I buried him near a favorite fishing hole, I silently thanked the dog for the help he had given me in restoring Dad's peace of mind.

The morning of Dad's funeral dawned overcast and dreary. This day looks
like the way I feel, I thought, as I walked down the aisle to the pews
reserved for family. I was surprised to see the many friends Dad and Cheyenne had made filling the church.

The pastor began his eulogy. It was a tribute to both Dad and the dog
who had changed his life. And then the pastor turned to Hebrews 13:2.
"Be not forgetful to entertain strangers." "I've often thanked God for
sending that angel," the pastor said.

For me, the past dropped into place, completing a puzzle that I had not
seen before: the sympathetic voice that had just read the right article,
Cheyenne's unexpected appearance at the animal shelter, his calm
acceptance and complete devotion to my father, and the proximity of
their deaths.

And suddenly I understood. I knew that God had answered my prayers after all.

Catherine Moore

Thanks John for sharing

 

 

 

     
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